We're so young and so gone, let's chase the dragon from our home...
Wish I'm that strong to ditch her, my heart's too soft knowing she'll be more in debt if I'm to go off, or worse, she'll be in vice. Though right now shes not even working, playing
games at home and smokes non stop. I don't mind but then.. she flirts with a storeman who works in her prev office (and he gets her lots of fags-ciggies!). Mind you, this storeman is near 50s, bald, ugly, dark, unrefined, no charm whatsoever. Only charm he has is he has some savings which he can splurge some on my gf. Well, not as much as I give her but still she's lovey and all on the phone nightly in front of me. And now the storeman finally convinced her I'm no good for her, he's better, because he's older and that I'm too young and childish, and all these bulls. So I'm young, I'm childish.. fine.. I'm a grad and he's hardly even literate!
But all in all, I've suffered a lot. Like I only have $3 in my pocket few days back, I got food for her only to find her not at home. Once at home, she tells me she had better meals with the storeman, asked me to throw away mine. Sad life yeh.. reason I stayed on, is because of my conscience.
I guess you're all right I should wake up.. but I'll try my best for this week see how. Write her name on the sand somewhere and ask her to come. If she doesnt dig it, I'll call it a day then.
to dennisc, and all those concerned individuals who have been following his story..
you may have money to help others, but you cannot help everybody. so please consider carefully who you choose to help.
you cannot start to help others if you can't even help yourself.
don't let your so-called 'conscience' tell you what to do. tell your conscience to go where it will be most useful and needed most.
just need to be really honest with yourself.
She needs to die... if not you (dennisc) won't wake up... does my avatar gives inspiration?