Got to find a place to vent and rant ... To cut it short, just received orders for overseas posting in indonesia yesterday. Although I have harboured thoughts of it for the longest time, I actually don't feel like going now?! In the past, it's always 'why not me?' or 'why is XYZ going and not me?' ... when it's finally materialises ... getting sleepless nights.
I don't have an option and departure is slated for in less than 3 weeks .. Granted it's only a 2 hours flight each way but I can only be back once every 60/90 days pending project status ... aaaarrggh! Don't know what is holding me back? Don't even have the guts to tell my folks at home ... sigh ..
I think I am really abnormal ... given the fact that the pay+allowance will be substantial and probably a bright spark for my career advancement ..